I.. Have done a bad n super hurting Things.. I really hate myself.. until i wan to die.. I feel tat i veri bad.. i am a bad gal.. really i dun have any energy to do anythin.. le.. HoW?? contin a relationshi i think i also dun have energy le.. I wan to be a place where no one knw me n i wan to hide this world.. Really.. i.. veri tired le.. Who can give me some energy... I really need a shoulder to lend on.. Cos i really veri sad.. I knw no one will lend de.. cos i am a gal who hurt n lie to ppl.. lor.. Bad rite.. I am a veri veri veri bad gal... Dun be frenz wif me.. .. :'( i cry until my eye veri pain.. now.. cry n cry until i make my god-jie worry abt me.. Cos i said i wan to knoke e wall wif my ehad wat.. so she like veri worry abt me le.. HOW?? Stop here.. if i die.. who will care?? so i die better rite...

Hi.. u KnW yEsTeR I Go oUT.. wIF My ParEnt Sia.. UnTil Midnight.. So fuN.. We Went.. To OrChard C Light, Go GeyLanG C gAlS.. StRanGe mE Is Gal Go C gAls AgAin.. :D So FunNY.. ThEn We.. Went to erm.. Where huh.. MuZ lEt me ThiNK.. HmMM... ya.. We went to eat our supper.. But for my daddy is Dinner.. haha.. :P I ate until veri full sia.. ReAlly.. (+.+) Then We went to East cOast Park.. Wa.. So pPl .. Sia.. N i can fEel tat i veri relax.. N I can hear e Wave.. haha.. Then we went To c pUBS.. haha.. Then i said to my daddy tat when i am 21 then u bring me to here n play k.. HmmM.. So fuN.. yester go out.. until 2 something then come back.. haha.. stop here ba..

Hi, Is me.. Writing my diary again… Hmmm.. Today is Christmas day sia… But I dun have any feeling le.. Dun knw why.. Maybe I nv celebrate so I dun have any feeling tat today is Christmas day LoR.. HaHa.. ~.~ HmMm.. U kNw i TodaY stay at home clean my desk lor.. then i throw a lot oh things haha... ErM.. ThEn I alSo puT PhoTo.. on My desk.. HmMm.. So cool.. ;) Wink At u haha.. OH my dear.. I think i going to crazy le.. Cos i keep laughing lor.. Hmmm... U kNw... I yester bought a new shirt le.. Is black colour N i quite like tat shirt lor.. ReAlly.. HaHa.. caN wEar When i wearing my JEans.. ReaLLy.. (^o^) HmMm.. stop here ba..

Hi.. U knw today I veri fan n blur.. Cos I dun knw wat course I wan to study.. Fan until I really wan to cry out le lor… Super damn fan.. Who knw le? No one rite... haha… I almost going to cry out in e bus lor... U knw.. my tears jus at my eye only le.. Really.. But I keep Controling Only lor.. IF not will really drop sia.. Then later all e ppl in e bus will c Y i crying sia.. haha.. :D U knw i call Jian Yong.. I ask him he free a not.. to pei me.. cos i really veri sad.. lor.. Until i cant stand le.. But he cant go out so it is ok.. I dun mind lor... Then i thinking of going to Lot 1 but at last did not lor.. I went to Bt Panjang Plaza.. Haha... Then.. I go buy CD.. miRRor.. N Biscuit.. haha.. OH.. die le.. When i am sad or fan.. or feel like crying I will buy this n tat.. Oh.. How.. When i am sad.. I will buy CD.. this Month i bought 2 CD.. le.. Is also when I am sad n going to cry tat type then buy de.. :'( OH.. my dear.. How?? Hmmm... I think who is my stead poor thing sia.. his pocket will have a big hole.. NO la.. I will not tat bad la.. OK.. spend my stead money.. Only spend my own money lor.. :P haha.. -.-''' haha... Cute rite.. +_+ I fan until siao ar.. =P Hmmm... stop here ba.. NiTe NiTe.. ToO.. @_@

HaLo.. =D Yo.. U knw.. Yester I go out to orchard wif my cousin sia.. First is wif my mum, mei, pei Jun jie jie, ying jie jie jie, Pei shan jie jie n her Furture lao gong wor... :P haha.. So fun to go out wif my cousin.. yes.. =D haha... (^o^) Then.. We go buy clothes.. lor.. N a lot of things lor... So happy.. Then Also buy $49.90 bag for me lor.. I pay $ 5 then others my Cousin pay.. haha.. E bag SuPeR dAmn NiCe.. sia.. My SCh bAg... =P My Cousin Gd hor.. Of cos gd.. haha.. HmMm... So fan now dun knw wat sch i wan to study sia... Sign.. But Dun knw y le.. I still veri happy now sia.. Dun knw wat happen.. haha.. :D Stop here ba.. later going to my pretty n handsome parent n my cute mei mei.. haha.. To eat dinner lor.. Wif my uncle.. aunt n my two cute cousin.. ~.~ So miz them hahaha... Ok la.. Stop here..

HaLo.. (6.6) JuS tOOk My 'N' Level result.. :( So SaD... CoS mY mAth LoR.. I GoT oNlY.. GrAdE 3 LoR.. i WaN tO gEt GrAdE 1.. :( BuT i KnW i HavE tRy My BeSt Le.. so DuN tO sAd Le.. Be HaPpY.. =D U KnW i GoT GrAdE 3 FoR mY ScIenCe Le.. WoW... So HaPpY.. CoS fIrsT tImE gOT So HiGh.. =P HaHa.. CaN'T bEliEve IT RiTe.. So IS mY pArEnt N Me.. =D Ok.. DuN sAiD aBT my ReSulT lE.. If NoT i WilL sAd AgAin.. :D So MuZ cHeEr Up... ~.~ CoOl.. RiTe.. U KnW.. I.. iN ReLaTionShiP.. Le.. hAhA.. SaID rEal.. It Is rEallY vEri HaRD tO Be A gD n niCe GF.. HaRD tIme!!! -.-''' No ChOice.. I nOw TrYinG mY bEsT tO pUt mY stEad BeFore My FrEnZ LoR.. I Knw AlL StEAd Will mInD iF u PuT FrEnZ FirSt... RiTe.. :D So PowEr Sia.. Me.. =P I ScAreD i WiLL GiVe uP SiA.. StEaD hIm HaLF.. WaY... :D HoPe I Will NoT GiVe Up n SaID bReAk ThIs WorDs.. HoPe BA.. :D AlSo HoPe I CaN a gD GF lOr.. HmMm... I ThInk I stOp HeRe.. Le.. :D

Yo… U knw today… My head veri giddy le… Making me so xin ke sia… Xin ke until I going to cry le.. cos my head veri giddy lor… N I also veri worry abt Jian Yong, he fever wat… I knw I care him too much le… lor… but no choice le… I jus dun knw why I care him so much… lor… haha… Funny rite… U knw why my head giddy a not… Cos this whole week I keep on sleep at mid-night… like 12 something or 1 haha… hehe… Mon I slp late cos I cry because e stupid Jian Yong forgot my birthday lor.. . Ok… I cry lor… Cry until veri late… like 12 something then I go slp… cry until veri tired so I slp le… haha… :P On Tue is wan to wait for Cheng Fong after work lor… While watching my vcd haha… hehe… N also chat wif Kenneth la… So abt 12 something like tat I go slp… On wed I doing to cross stitch until 1 clock then slp… On thur also… my computer until 11 then go do my cross stitch until 1 clock… So veri powerful rite… then I have tow ake up at 7.15 lor… OK… so I only have 6 hours or 7 hours to slp only… haha… hehe… So tat is why my head a bit giddy today n so sleepy… yester when I am on my bed my head more giddy… giddy until more xin ke… I wan to sms to Cheng Fong de… but he ton so I think dun disturb him lor… some more he is so tired le… after his work… Some more he said yester have a lot of order so dun disturb him lor… U knw today afternoon boss n ms lee jus left me in e office le… then they go eat their lunch… Aiyo… So scared lor… alone in e office le… haha… I scared until I sms Jian Yong… haha… wan to call him de but scared he is busy so at last did not cal him at all… Jus sms him only… haha… :P hmmm… jus now go out wif my god-jie… Real god-jie hor… ok… haha… Cos she gave me birthday present haha… :D Now I am at my God mum house… haha… cos stay over night… wa… so nice sia… cos I did not really stay at other ppl house de lor… after going out haha… stop here ba…

Hi... Hmmm... u knw... Jian Yong sick 2 days le... la... I dun knw.. when he told me tat... my heart like fly to his house like tat sia... dun knw why le... Maybe because i still like him le... :( How??? I dun knw wat to do sia... CAre him?? love him?? i think dun need le.. cos got other gal love n care him le lor... :D :'( i feel like crying sia.. how?? My heart crack le... crack into piece... le... no one can fix le.. lor... how?? Y so many ppl sick huh?? first is kenneth... second is Cheng Fong... Third iS Jian YOng.. Oh.. my dear... Y... oh... my heart going to fly away le... Luck Cheng Fong.. is ok now.. I now veri worry abt Kenneth... n Jian Yong... Hmmm... How.. I think no one will knw my feeling now sia... :( hey... i dun trust e stupid relationship le... Only hurt ppl.. So dumb dumb... stop here ba.. cos i going to do my cross stitch le.. :D

Hi, today is my birthday. But I like I am not tat happy. Hmmm… maybe because I am sad of Cheng Fong n Jian Yong ba… U knw why. They like forgotten tat today is my birthday… I knw it is not important to them but is veri important to me even they jus tell me a Happy Birthday. Forget it ba… Cos of them my whole day is not happy later my other frenz said me tat is not worth it… hahaha… Hmmm… U knw yester at 11.04 I start counting down to my birthday le haha… So funny rite… I keep on looking at my Hp lor.. to see wat time is it… When it turn to 00.00 I said happy birthday to myself le… haha… So funny lor… Then I said finish then I put back my hp le… Then I go slp le.. cos my eye veri tired le lor…

When 12.05, my “mama” sms me n said “Happy Birthday gal..” My eye really veri tired so I half open n half close look at my hp de lor… haha… When 12.12, my “ah ma” sms me n said “Grand daughter… Happy Birthday… =D” Oh… My a sweet “mama” n “ah ma” I have sia… haha… When 12.16, Kevin (from wlny) sms me n said “Happy birthday! May all your wishes all come true” haha… Means I going to slp le… then another sms come… Wa, so hard to slp sia… But I really have a sweet frenz sia… haha… They r really veri ncie to me… Love them so so much… MuAcK… Then I send to him “ Thanx… Haha… I wish u can cheer up n stay happy always wor… haha…” cos I knw he sad wat… so muz wish him stay happy hahaha… When 1.40, my Pei Xuan Jie Jie sms me lor… she send me a pic message N said “ Mei, Nw is 1 o’clock in e midnite or morning tat I wan 2 wish u all the best and happy 16 birthday.. Hope I m the 1st ! =P” When 2.31, Kelly sms me N said “ HaPpY bIrThDaY tO yOu! StAy CuTe & HaPpY aLwAyS… tAkE cArE.. nItEzNiTeZ.. SwEeTiE dReAm… MuAcKz…. =P” When 5.58, Bee Hong sms me n said “ Yo.. Happy birthday to you.. Hope all your dream will come true.. hee.. And also dun miss me too much.. haha...” So sweet rite… my frenz… aiyo… will make me so ai si ni them sia… Give them a warm Hug by miaoru… :D When 8.40, my daddy sms me … he send a pic message wif a birthday cake.. N “ happy birthday in eng n chinese…” haha… My dad also veri nice n gd to me rite… haha… When 2.03pm, my Jin Hao Kor Kor sms me n said “ HapPy BiRtHdAy Wor! MUZ tAkE CARe Wor! All ThE bEsT iN YR StuDiEs!” When 2.13pm, Wei Ling sms me n said “ miao, happy birthday..” When 3.22 pm, Chong Lin ( Kor Kor) said “ Haha… Happy birthday” When 4.23 pm, Kenneth sms me n said tat “ Hi, miaoru… I’m kenneth… Happy birthday to u and stay happy 4ever…” So nice sia… haha… All my frenz…

U knw in the office… Miss Lee treat us eat Pizza Hut le… Hmmm… I ate until so full… Aiyo… later I become fatter n fatter how… No one wan me le… haha… Ok la.. Muz control my food… le… So will thin wat… haha… then a bit pretty… cos I am so ugly plus fat then more ugly le… dun wan… so muz eat less less hahaha…. :P Hey, u knw wat is my birthday wishes a not… Wish all my frenz will find other person who will care n love them lor… :D haha… Wish all my frenz always happy… Wish my parent will not quarrel next time… Wish my N level can pass… Wish I can find a guy who can treasure, love, care me n respect my parent too… haha… Hope all my wish can come true…

Tml is my birthday... but i am not tat happy.. cos i think jian yong like forget my birthday le.. So sad sia.. How.. forget it ba.. dun knw how to said also.. hahaha... :D stop here..

Hi... Jus now go out wif my "mama", "ah ma", Ong, Bee Hong, Huan... n me... haha... I also got jio Cheng Fong, Vincent, Fu Qiang n Guo Liang... But Tat Cheng Fong think i am toys is it... Can said meet n dun meet again n again... Hey.. I have feeling de le.. Wait for him for so long le lor... then said dun meet... U knw.. tat time... I am going to show my temper le lor.. But i told myself to control.. I try to control lor... ok... When i reach the place where he is... rite.. I call him.. then his frenz said tat is at Base 2 ar... when walk until dun knw where then cal cheng fong.. OK.. When i reach le.. i call him.. then he said at stair case..ok then we go find them OK lor... haha.. then i alone go up to e stair case... Tat time he said they r waiting for their frenz ok lor... Then i think my face turn red le.. Cos.. I am super angry le lor.. OK.. mean wat.. tell us to wait again... Wa, Tell u tat time i jus dun wan to said back only cos his frenz over there... if not.. I really will scold him like tat... 3 time le ok... Still is e same.. I wait for him... today i think going to 3 hours or 2 hours + lor ok... :@ Oh.. My dear... i think is my first time waiting a guy until so long... Until i controling my temper to talk to him... haha u know when he tell me he is waiting 4 other frenz my hand feel like hitting something le lor... but i control... :( Who knw?? only my frenz.. haha... I smile also not natural de lor.. OK.. haha... Hmmm... So angry wif him... wated to give him a box... on his eye sia.. Really lor.. I veri angry wif him... :@ :@ :@... I jus now cry in e toliet... i also dun understand y.. lor... OK.. maybe too silly to wait 4 him.. So long lor.. hours le.. not min ok.. haha.. I keep on hitting my hand on e floor sia.. until so pain n i hit my head to e wall also.. So like going to faint like tAT.. jus not my gastic also veri pain... Pain until i cant stand up n i fall down... haha... Now pain la.. A bit pain lor... :D but i still so happy.. cos i knw i die also no one will care me de... Haha... U knw.. before meeting Cheng fong.. I almost going to hit e car sia.. So fun.. haha... IF "mama" did not call me i think i now in e hospo le.. haha.. N not typing online diary le.. Die le.. More gd wat.. rite.. like this.. dun need to worry this n tat wat.. MY parent still did not tok to each other lor.. OK.. haha... :D... DUn knw wat to do lor.. Ok.. so sad.. sia... I think i stop here ba... :D On next mon my birthday.. But i think no one will tell me happy birthday de... Cos no one in their heart will remem me this frenz lor.. OK... u knw expect my class mate n sch mate.. other frenz... I hate it... dun like them sia... :@