Diary today is my last year to celebrate Teacher’s Day with my secondary school teachers le… So sad… When during the last song which the teacher sings I am sad I feel like to cry because the song is nice… So sad… It is ok I next year will come back to find this year form teacher de…. Hahaha… today Mr Mah got come back le… But he did not saw me… I saw him… I has left the school about 1 week and 2 days le… so sad… Diary, all the students who graduate are so pretty and handsome oh… going to fall in love le oh… Hahaha… But I will pretty OH… I am dreaming haha… hee… anyway how I look also that pretty de… So ugly hmmm… sad… sia… I so ugly Hahaha… Hee… But it is ok my heart is pretty can le… Ya… :P Hee… Anyway, I feel that I nowadays keep on hiding from Muhamah because he keep asking me to go home with him I don want… I don knw… I keep on reject him everyday… Is it hurt him??? OH OH OH… but I don want to go home with him le… really I also don know why lor… No reason… at all… Maybe Jia Xin said he like me then I am going to hide him le… I not sure at all… I very blur NOW… Lor… Sign…

Hey diary, I saw Jian Yong today again… When I am waiting Huan Huan… Hmmm… Last Tue I also saw him but is at Greenridge shopping centre… I very happy to saw him… Hahaha… hee… I saw him 5 time le… I think is fate.. hee… But he only saw me 3 time… Cos I saw him that 2 time he did not saw me… hahaha… Sometime, when I saw him and he did not saw me… HE look quite handsome de lor… Hahaha… hee… diary, I think I stop here wor…

Halo… Morning… I today very early wake up… because my dad said if my mei and I did not wake up then we don have breakfast to eat so we wake up so early… lor… at 6 something lor… Hahaha… Hmmm… it is ok what right…

Diary, yester night I want to study de le… But I can’t study at all… I miz my aunt… Very much… she has passed away 3 years le… I remember 3 years ago the national day we are at her Blk there then we did not saw the national day parade… that is the first year we did not watched…We are wif my cousin… That day is her 3 days die le… So sad… Meh…I know on the 4 days we have to burn the house and the others things to my aunt then after we burn… My another aunt told four of us to eat… But we are very sad… When I saw both of my cousin cry my Mei and I faster told us don cry lor… I saw them like that I feel like to hug them and tell them don sad yr mum don want to see you both crying de ok… U both are big le… Don cry ok… still got me right… and my Mei to support u all and we will always beside u de ok… don cry… But I did not… So stupid right… Because we are boys lor… My Mei faster tells my small cousin don cry then I told the big cousin don cry… after that they are ok le… Hmmm… I felt like we are not like cousin at that time we are more like sister and brothers because we from small play until so big le… So that is why… We also told each other our secrets lor… Hahaha….

Sign… So sad… 3 years le so fast… why so fast de huh… sign… do you knows my aunt is very nice, kind, caring and pretty… she also very respect to her daddy… I can say she is a very nice aunt and a good model for us…Really lor… ok…

Hmmm…. Diary, I now don feel like have a stead le… maybe because I now then know why study is very important to us lor... why last time when I am in sec 1 I don know le… Must wait until I sec 4 then know why… I don understand at all… lor… Sign… Stead can after my study then said but I don know how to tell Vincent… Sign… how??? I hope we can be friends now stead after that then said because I don dare to step inside… lor… I scared to hurt him… I know my mum also don want me to have any stead until I finish my study right… maybe after my study when I go to work then I will stead lor… But like that is a few years later le… Can he wait??? I don know… I also don dare to tell him… How???

Diary, writing diary is it wrong? But I love to write diary because like that I will not make my friends or anyone worry about me or up sad… le… what that goods right… Diary, why I am a softhearted person le… Why??? I don understand… Who can tell me? Diary, I feel that I am not a good jie jie le… Because why last time I did not study well le… Study N (A) now even Mei also said me why I did not study well… for her to see… Do you know I yester cry because of my mei… I am sad when Mei said like that… I super sad… I cry but not in front of her le… :( I really hope she can study well will not like me study N (T)… Do you know when other people ask you study what steam then you very hard to tell them you are studying N (T) because some people will look down on us de… I don want my Mei to have this kind of feeling… U knows a not… The feeling is very painful… Oh… I feel like to cry now… I don know when I alone I will every sad and anyhow think… Sign… do you know I don want my parent to sad also… because her two daughter is study N (T) de… whenever my mum said that I get hurt… I force myself to study well I want to get good result for my parent to see like that they will very proud of me what … But why my mei don want… le… I really very sad… I know I learn anything very slow… But I believe if I study hard or work hard I can do very well then others de… How… I have keep on doing my math everyday le… My science? I have bought the “N” book to do le… But can help me meh? I don know lor… Sign… “N” level is just around the corner. How… Is it enough time for me to study now… HUH….

I think I stop here… take care bye…