You leave me SPEECHLESS.,

I just noticed that everytime whenever i am alone in the bus i will always anyhow think or ask myself alot of question which there are no answer back. Weird right? I want to be happy everytime but sometime i just cant control my mind. I am tired of my working life. I think 2 more weeks when my class start i wont have any time to anyhow think because i will be super tired by the time i after my class. * Hope some1 will fetch me home*

Oh ya, my leg super itchy. The dumb dumb wen zi bite me now still itchy. I want to bite monster liao.

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

8:50 PM

OMG. Super long never practice my piano, just now practice awhile until my left hand the 5th finger pain. =( My theory haven DO!!!! Who can help me to do? +_+

Anyway, tomorrow is sat. YEA!! Let's celebrate ! =p Am i abit crazy? Cos i do not want to live in the life which full of saddness like i do past few weeks. So must STAY HAPPY!!!

No matter what happen, i will jia you and look forward to it and not thinking about my past or unhappy stuff. So i wont miss any1 which not worth my missing.

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

9:48 PM

Yesterday we celebrated darren's belated birthday. =) They are darren, hui, ping, zj, mingfu, jian xiong and me. =p We went to shop for darren's birthday present first then we go east new york as our lunch at 2 plus. We also took some photo at there.

After that, we walk walk then ...... After that, we went to find darren they all and watch movie. I forgot the movie ticket. =( i want to keep. So sad! After movie we went to eat dinner at pepper dun know what. Cos i forgot the name! =p Cant blame me. After that we went home. =) Think i better go bath if not sure late. =D

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

11:16 AM

Hey, i been trying my best to do well in this job yet i just so careless. Today is the day i cant forgot because since the first day i work until now. Today i feel super stress up and scared. I scared i will lose this job due to my careless. I stress up until i cant take it almost going to cry out but i controlled myself. I must be strong no matter what. Because i am miao ru. Plus mingfu's sms make me feel comfortable. Thank you. Lucky, my collegue helped me to solve the problem if not i do not know what will happen in the next place.

Anyway, tomorrow i going out with darren they all to celebrate darren's belated birthday. =D GTG! =)

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

6:36 PM

Phase?

i love you

i hate you

i envy you

i despise you

i need you

i want you

i poisoned you

i corrupted you

i created you

i destroyed you

i cherished you

i hurt you

i healed you

i persuaded you

i let you

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

11:13 PM

From 8 July i know something, i can say i keep waiting some1 who will call or sms me. Yet until now i never received but is some1 who i do not want to receieve the call, keep calling me. It is so unfair!! When i keep waiting the day to come yet is like empty! I miss until i going crazy soon. Maybe it is time for me to say good bye and keep the moments insde my heart.

Cheer up, miao ru!! I cant upsad just because of 1 person. *still waiting* Should i give myself a chance? Or should go towards my heart's thinking? FAN! Save me!

Tomorrow is friday. He ask me want to meet anot. Should i go meet him or say i am not free?

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

8:06 PM

Yesterday, I went to NDP. It was full of people. It was fun yesterday but my cousin late! -.- So ma, mei, god-ma, god-pa and me have to wait for my princess god-sis. Overall, i do enjoy it. All thanks to mingfu and darren. =) They are some photo which i took over there as follow:-

Back to my mood again, i feel nowsdays i will get angry whenever my parent tell me to choose bf properly or nag at me who to choose as my bf. But they never really ask me do i like that person anot. They just think the guy suit me and maybe he is interested in me yet forgot about my feeling. If i really listen to them, i think i will be the one who is xin ku only. hahax.

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

8:01 PM

Today i have made mistake. I send wrong rates to customer. The e-mail is talking about Ho Chi Minh yet i send e-mail about Aberdeen. Sometime, i was wondering why i cant do my work correct without making any mistake. Really feel i am so useless. Cannot do anything correctly. English poor, chinese poor, everything also weak. If people can learn 1 time, i cannot i have to learn 3 time. Why am i so different from the others? Cant i just like the normal people just learn 1 time i will understand? Most of the time i really want to do correct without making any mistake yet i cant. I know i shouldn't have the negative thinking because got 1 person told me that if you have negative then the negative things will come true. But sometime i just cannot control myself to think of negative things of myself.

Someone i miss, i cant see him or listen to his voice. When are you coming back from your trip? Wish to talk to you but sometime do not know how to start the conversation. But i do enjoy the days studying with you together and the days ......

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

10:44 PM